so the holidays are what, five days away? i've got most of my gifts bought, a few of them already given, but it feels like christmas is expired just like that fruitcake that still hasn't been eaten. i'm kind of lonely, sitting here alone in the front room of my parent's house, desparately trying to feed my technological brain with the comfort of cyberspace. too bad this computer isn't worth the parts that were invested into its creation (the internet runs slower than a two legged octopus). i guess this is the time of the year where one is meant to consider creation and value in oneself and the world that surrounds. i'm starting to realize that a lot of what i've always valued or held true isn't nearly as stable as i'd always believed it to be. in less than a year friends have moved on, apart and closer in ways that i never would have expected. granted, none of them are online right now to defend this sentiment, but i know that wherever they are (be it greensboro or cozumel) that i am missed and loved. and i think that's something to write home about.